My Life and Thoughts in Words and Pictures

OK now I know I have been lax on the posting yet again...but please don't shoot me.....LOL...

Just so much is going on and some days I have a hard time deciding what end is up....

I just finished up a baby set for Jacks' cousin who is due in the first part of January...Her shower is on Saturday, and even though it is in Livonia, about 1 1/2 hour drive, we are going.....It is at Mama Mia's ......No idea what kind of a restaurant it is, but will find out then....

I am having a little struggle keeping my grades up to par....of course I have probably set way too high of a goal for myself with wanting all classes to have an A.....BUT that is what I want so that is what I am struggling to do... I am so upset that I may not be able to attend classes in the Winter, with not having enough money in my grant....I am trying different resources, and hope that I can come up with the approximately $800 to finish paying the tuition and books.....Here I already registered for them, and saw that it was $1844, and I only have $1504.......I need only 7 classes to get my degree, and was able to sign up for 3 of those classes...PLUS take the second American Sign Language class....It was such a disappointment.....here I am trying to educate myself to be able to get a job, and yet again I have been knocked down....BUT I bounce back and have done so under much worse cases, so I will just fight, and hunt and hope and PRAY for the best and see if there is another reason for this set back....

I have been asked to join in on a Parent Council for Brooke's school for Title 1 federal funding, the information meeting is set for tomorrow, so I will be attending that before I go to Psychology class.....I am VERY interested in being a part of it..

I have also checked into an alternative to Head Start for William, since he will not be getting home visits or classroom sessions until probably the middle of December, due to them moving, I am VERY disappointed in the whole program this year....I know that they can do better and for some reason they are not meeting up to my standards and theirs.....I do not know what kind of changes have taken place that has totally caused them to be lacking, this year, but I do know that I am not a happy parent...My son is suffering because of it...How do you tell him he can not go to school, when the child wants to go so badly, and cries his little heart out, because Momma will not take him....because there is no school.....

I have a few people I would like to say HI to, and I am so sorry that I have not visited your blogs in forever, and have been just a little out of touch...BUT I do want you all to know that I think of you VERY often and miss you and maybe I can get my butt in gear and do some visiting....

Ghost I did catch a glimpse of the little preview on your blog, from following you, and I hope you have settle in from your return from Scarlet's....Sandy so sorry I have not stopped by to see what you are up to...Hope you are doing well and taking care of yourself....Scarlet sure hope you enjoyed your visit with your sister....Jennifer, have yet to check out the new patterns, but I know that they are great as are all of your patterns....Linda, I so miss our nightly chats....Hope you are doing well with work...Katie...I so miss our chats on the phone and here, Hope you are enjoying your life and new love...You deserve the best.....try to stay warm and safe this winter.....BRrrrr...

I will have some pictures to share, tomorrow, I have them on my flash drive to load at school, there is no way to get pictures from this Internet (If you can call it that at times) I do not even get to check out Ravelry, Facebook, and such, cause it takes coon ages to load pages and I get SOoo frustrated that I give up....We are still checking into getting faster Internet, but not much is available here, unless you want to pay an arm and a leg to get satellite, and then monthly fees that are outrages.....

The pictures that I will be sharing are from the kids carving their pumpkins, Brooke's field trip to Blakes Apple Orchard (that I got to attend with her) Then also of the kids on their Merchant trick or treat walks through Lapeer and Imlay City....Brooke was Tinker Bell and William was Thomas the Train............

Both of the kids are doing well, and getting so big...there are days that I look at them and take step back, because I swear they grew another inch over night, or their faces have changed yet again....some days I look at them, and find it hard to remember what they looked like as babies...then I just throw in a CD and go through old pictures, and CRY, cause my babies are growing up so fast, and I am having a hard time keeping up with them....I want to cherish EVERY moment, and yet seem to miss so many....

I know that I am blessed to have them in my life....to have God trust me to care for them and bring them up the right way, and teach them and LOVE them.......Then I have the down times where I feel as if I am not fit to be their mother, because look at all they have gone through in the past 4 years...they deserve so much better.....and right now I just can not provide that for them.....Brooke's teacher made a comment that just about broke my heart, she said that Brooke is so unsure of her abilities and just clams up and expects so much of herself...yet her teacher knows that I do not, and that I "Lift" her up and encourage her at all times, then I sit back and think, it is probably all due to the fact that we have moved 3 times in 3 years, she has no real security.....and it all due to Jack and myself...her insecurities should not be her crutch, yet how else is the child to be, when she has not had much of a secure life...Sure she has ALL my love and support....my comfort and my security, but that is not enough for a child...they need to know that they will have a bed of their own, that their dog is not going to be sent away, because you can not take them with you, they need to have a home of their own, not someone else basement...they need to know that when they need something like clothes or winter boots, that momma and daddy can provide them with them....not sit there and wonder how in the world they are going to get them.....SO maybe I need to focus more on my children and giving them as much security as I can, to make up for the security that I can not provide them with right now....
Maybe that is why they both love school, it is "security".

OK now I need to get off here and go cry, since I have surfaced all these thoughts, and insecurities of my own.......

I hope you are all doing well and staying safe..............

Hug the ones you love and pray for those you don't....................

First day of school......my little Kindergartner.....

All ready for school........

State Fair Pony Ride...........William

Pony Ride.........Brooke

Budweiser wagon........

Brooke milking a cow

Brooke, Breanna and William.........

Brooke and William in the "Big Rig"

This is FUN.........

Jennie and Brooke just came down the BIG slide.........

Little cutie..born at the fair........Miracle of Life exhibit

Look mom, we are driving the boat

Breanna, Brooke and William on the train

At the beach......"Can I play in the mud?"

Where are the shells?

William's first day of Head Start........

Hi Mom

Feeding the horse at Saginaw children's zoo

Home from school............

At Jeepers..."This is BIG"

Good Morning....now here it is only 11:55 am. And I have already had a partially full day....Got up this morning and took Sir William to school, stayed with him the 3 hours....NOW I am sitting here, ready for a nap BUT want to work on the 9 Point Round Ripple afghan I am making, for Kaye and Jim, the neighbors that have adopted the kids, Jack and I....On Tuesday last week. Kaye asked if we had time to visit.....She showed us their home, and gave each kid a bag of clothes and Jack and myself also got a box of clothes....So very sweet of them....Jack and Myself got some really nice warm shirts and she even gave me a lovely 100% silk jacket that I just LOVE.....So very warm and comfy....the kids got some pants shirts and of course there was some little goodies in there....

The afghan I am working on is being done in Caron Pound(ers) in Ecru and Light blue, and also Red Heart Delft blue....It is turning out so nice, and I have decided that I need to make some more for gifts and donations,....so easy to do, and works up so fast....

I received my grade on my first Psychology test, on yesterday and I sure surprised myself with a 90% which is an A (4.0) ....NOW to get my grade, tonight, on my philosophy test.....I turned in my research/observation paper in Psychology also, and have a reaction paper to do for Sign Language...

Have received word from a couple of sources that when I finish my Early childhood education (ECE) special needs degree, that I will be VERY hirable....because even though many people are going into ECE very few have the Special needs part......I have also decided that as my minor I will be taking up Sign Language.......that will be even another step up in the hiring department....then can work in a classroom as an interpreter.....

Well, I need to get little man some lunch...(he will not eat the lunches they serve in head start, since it consists of sandwiches, and he is not a sandwich boy)....then I am going to go over my Philosophy and then crochet...need to get the afghan done before Halloween, since that is when Kaye will be going back to her HOME....for the winter, she basically just stays here during the summer and Winters in Dearborn with her husband....

Hope all have a beautiful day today..................

From VERY cold Michigan............

Well do you believe I still have forgotten to put pictures on my flash drive....I am so senile lately, or is it just that I have way too many things going on....

I am sitting here in computer class, unable to print my finished work, cause my darn student ID card is not functioning....and then also I can not go on to something else, cause someone is borrowing my book, cause he is missing pages in his, I thought he was going to take my book and copy those pages, but no, he is sitting there using it....I guess I will have to let him know that I really need to get busy, cause I only have 2 weeks and I have to be through with Microsoft Word and also Excel....She showed us some stuff on Excel, but she lost me....SOoo I hope the book goes into it well.

The kids are doing great...we have all recovered well from the yucky's...and I am not a germaphob, BUT have resorted to bringing Lysol Disinfecting Wipes with me, to school, and wiping down, the desk, computer, and what ever else I may touch....Also carrying around some Germ-X......I just do not need for any of us to be getting sick if I can avoid it.....

Well, I really think I will get my book, and get busy...I do at least have the software on my laptop, now, that I can work on stuff at home....SOoo hopefully I will catch up and maybe even get ahead, so that I can work on some of my writing assignments from some of my other classes....

Take care and be safe and warm........


BY THE WAY, I HAVE ADDED A NEW ITEM TO MY ETSY SHOP.....

It has been WAY too long......I am so sorry that I have seemed to have taken a summer vacation.....

With slow computer connections, busy schedules and just general LIFE....I just do not seem to get on the computer.......

I have made a pact with myself.........I take computer classes on Friday...I can get to class up to 30 minutes early, I have access to the internet, SOooo I have decided that I am going to try to at least post a tid bit on each Friday...get some pictures loaded onto my Flashdrive, and load them on here....

I have been so amiss in everything..that even when I do crochet, I usually forget to take pictures...BUT do make sure I get pictures of the kids and some of the summer enjoyment.....

We are all doing pretty well....suffering with allergies....that caused me to get a sinus infection...took care of that, then William ended up with a sinus infection, and Tonsillitis which is being treated right now......he has not been is school since last week........I called in again and told him he would not be there tomorrow, either......he needs to get rest and stay out of the cold outdoor conditions, to get a good recovery on the way............

I made both kids some little bags out of cotton.....Brooke's is orange and Williams is black....they want to use them for Halloween, so even though there is no costumes in the foreseeable future, they will at least have something to collect some candy in.....I think I will just have to dig out some makeup and "wing" it for them for costumes.........

Brooke had her Kindergarten pictures done today.....she looks so grownup....I am still trying to figure out where my babies went to.....

Brooke is 46 1/2 inches tall and weighs 45 pounds and William is 43 inches tall and weighs 40 pounds.....they are just growing like weeds......

I have some tests to study for in Psychology and Philosophy for next week....Also I had a paper to write in Psychology (done) and one still to do for Sign Language.....Been trying to keep up with it all, so that I am not being "rushed" to study or research.....

I guess I should get off here, It is COLD and I am shivering, so I want to get under the blankets...
Woke up to the house being only 66 degrees, this morning, and not sure what the temp was down here, but it was COLD.....and it is cold enough right now, that I dug out the space heater and have it going....Just wish someone would turn on the furnace, instead of putting it off........


Hug the ones you love and pray for those you don't............................