Faith, Love, Hope

All three have been truly tested in my life....My faith, my love and my hope.....Each time they have also been renewed. I have never given up on any, just doubted them at times.

Again they have all been renewed. My faith in God and other people, My love of others and others love, and my hope of all to be and the hope of others for me.

I received an email the other day, that brought immediate tears. The tears were not of sadness, but of shear Faith, Hope, Love and happiness.

Sometimes I am so totally amazed at people and their generosity to others (especially to strangers)

When I write here, it is not to get something, or to have anyone feel sorry for me...I do it to get it out in the open, so that it does not eat away at me. This is my release, some of my sanity. I have said before that my charity crafting is a way to give myself some "worth" which actually may be seen by others as being selfish. I had gotten to the point of feeling totally worthless in my life, that I had to do something for someone, to make myself realize that I am not worthless, it is also a part of my sanity renewal.

The email I received has did away with most of the holiday blahs that I had. It warms my heart so very much to know that there is such caring people out there......

We are still looking into moving (we have no other choice) but that has not been going well. It would all be great if we had some money put away that we could get Jack to Wyoming, and he have enough money to get by for at least a month, while getting a job and waiting for a paycheck. Then he could get some money put away, and find us a place to live. Then the kids and myself could go there. So now we are working on a way for that to happen. I do still need to get some boxes and start packing the house up. Because there is just no way that we can expect our land lord to let us stay here when there is no rent money for him.......I just know that I am not waiting until the last minute, like I did last year and about kill myself trying to get everything packed and moved...I will be prepared this time, and hopefully that will make it a little easier on all of us.

My foolish father sold his camper a few months ago....He should have been thinking, and at least we could have stayed in that. It may have been a little cramped, but not any worse than all of us in their basement. I always say that as long as we are together, that is all that counts.

I have been working on Williams cardigan, for his birthday. I have half a sleeve left, and then I can sew it together, put the button hole and button bands on and it will be done. Then I really want to make him a pair of teddy bear slippers I found a pattern for. I also would like to make him a teddy bear hat, scarf and mitten set. I put the back of the cardigan up to him yesterday, and the little stinker got mad, when I would not let him keep it. He was so happy today, when He got his smaller cardigan, and I actually let him wear it (it was nice outside) So I know he will love this one, and will want to wear it all the time, also.

I am so blessed with my little angels, they love what they receive whether it be an expensive toy, or something little that someone has made them. Last year at Christmas I think they got more enjoyment out of watching Bubba play with the little toys they got him then what they got. It will be so nice to have and when it is Jacks or my Birthday, that they can go shopping and buy us something, because I know they would love to see us with what they picked out. That will be something that will be done at Christmas, one way or another, they will get to go shopping for us and be able to spend a little something to buy us a present. I want them to enjoy giving and not just receiving.

Well I had better get this sleeve done and then take my tired butt to bed............I hope that everyone is finding a blessing in something or someone.............I know I have....................